I woke up this morning not feeling like my chipper self, I was a bit depressed. I'm not sure if it's because I was PMS-ing or I actually had a case of the depression, but whatever it was I couldn't get rid of it. I feel annoyed, annoyed at any and everything around me, including myself....sigh. The worst of all I'm annoyed at JC (anyone reading this post better stop before lightning strikes you down, you've been worn). Not that it's his fault but blaming myself entirely is no fun (insert the one they call Misery).
First let me say, my life is awesome; I have a genius for a son who's turning nine in a week. I like my job. I have great friends. I'm in good health. I can afford to pay my bills and have a little extra in my paycheck every two weeks. My relationship with JC is the best it has ever been. Life is good.....but something is missing. I feel like I'm living in a constant state of autopilot. I know what you're thinking, if you don't like your life now then change it or it could be worse. Well if I could go to Target and buy a new life, try it on for a few weeks and if I don't like it return for my old life, I would. Well easier said than done.
Hopefully this feeling is just temporary and tomorrow I get to start all over again. Choose again, and this time I will choose to be happy and grateful for the life I have and will have.
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I know almost exactly how you feel...it does feel like autopilot because I can swear I've been here before. Around this time...last year. INSANE. I guess it's all about what you choose you focus on. Easier said than done, cliche, I know. But that's all I got :-). Feel better!
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